“Woman was taken out of man; not out of his head to top him, nor out of his feet to be trampled underfoot; but out of his side to be equal to him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be loved”
So why am I the man in this relationship? I constantly protect him, take care of him, love him, I make sure that he has everything that he needs every day. Even after he’s cussed me out and called me a crazy bitch, I went and did his laundry. I don’t understand why I am like this. It always draws me back to thinking that people want what they can’t have, is it because I feel that even after six years, I still don’t have him completely, so I keep trying? I don’t know. I know he’s mine forever, and I know people think that I’m insane, but just because I’m insane; it doesn’t make me wrong. No relationship is perfect by any means, and I think we both thrive off of the imperfections, the flaws, the craziness, the fire fights, because after six years, I’m more in love with him today than I was yesterday, and tomorrow will be the same. I just want something more back. I lied when I told him that all I need is his love. I need comfort, I need stability, I need to be taken care of instead of constantly taking care of him, I need him to be there for me when I need him, and even when I don’t. He never asks for any of this (most of the time), and doesn’t understand why I get so angry because I’m the one that just does it without question, so why can’t he do those things without question? I know these things take time, and I’m not brainwashed thinking my prince charming is out there waiting to find me, or vice versa, and I know there will never be one perfect man for me. But he is perfect, to me, because I love him, everything about him, down to his hairy toes. Alas, I am drained, I have given so much of myself, I have nothing left for me. I simply cannot do this anymore, until he starts to give me as much as I have given him. It’s not about money, or anything like that. I want him to give me the comfort, stability, love, and support that I have given him endlessly since we have been together. I guess I’m just stuck waiting for the day to come."